This week so far, and last week have been wonderful. I realized after talking to my cooperating teacher that I have been judging my days based on my performance. Not on my students. While I need to focus on myself to reflect, I also need to make sure that I am thinking about my students performance. This morning is going well, 1 discipline problem that I nipped in the butt. I will not let that affect my day. Overall, my kids did wonderful today and were very diligent about doing their work. I think the anticipatory set really hooked them into the lesson about Native American’s on the Lewis and Clark trail. I was happy with the work, and I just need the behavior to go well.
What should guide my days rather than my success in getting my students quiet, keeping a behavior level to minimum problems, I need to judge my day by if my students got it, or if they enjoyed doing what they were doing, and are able to create something from it. Can they form an opinion on it? Do they remember the main topic and why it was chosen? What they make in my room, and learn from it is more important than on if I remembered to do the worksheets in the correct order, or the activities went the way I planned.
We will work on modifications today, and classroom management. I have a feeling a few kids are going to start having lunch with me every once in a while. I do not know what else to do. I hate the fact that I am going to have to make and coerce students to fix their behavior. Once I am able to work on those skills better, the students will benefit, and so will I. I also have realized strategies that I will implement from day one. While becoming the students “friend” (I use that word really loosely) I feel like there are some more personal things I need to change due to subjects I could have handled better.
I’ve learned through experiences now also what to pursuit in the classroom, and also what behaviors to just plain let go. Most of the experiences that I’m dealing with now are how to fine tune aspects of my classroom management. I know in the future, lunch detentions and stricter punishments will be put in place. It is hard to deal with some situations in the heat of the moment. It’s a skill I will have to work on forever.
So my goals for the next 2 weeks are: better classroom management, working on creative ways to get my students more actively engaged and to stop beating myself up for behavior problems. I have learned that I cannot beat myself up for problems that I cannot control. Tomorrow is always a new day, and another chance with students who, even if they don’t show it, look up to you.